Long time, No blog

Well hello there, it's been over two years since I last wrote anything on my blog and a lot has changed. In a nutshell I fell for a girl who was so bad for me that she pushed me to do things I never thought I was capable of. I went and got a house with her and treated her like a queen but seeing as she was rather immature things fell apart quickly.

Anyways I've been single now for a good couple of months and I've enjoyed myself I'm not going to lie. I've really got rid of all the crap that was dragging me down and feel the best I have in a long time. Stopping abusing alcohol on the weekends has paid dividends with the way I'm feeling, I've started running as well for the first time since I had my knee operation and its feeling solid which is exciting in my eyes. Maybe a return to my first love which is rugby isn't as far fetched as I first thought.

As for the job hunting I'm still stuck doing this roofing malarky as there is literally nothing out there that makes me want to go for it. So there you have it for the moment, I'll be more entertaining on my next entry I promise.

Thanks for reading Ordinary Ash out

Late night, dark time boredom

Well I haven't updated for while again. Seems that it's alot harder to keep track of time than I thought, if im being completely honest. Anyways, how on earth have I come to the point of staying up later and sleeping longer than your usual doley type person? . Im actually finding harder to get to sleep than any other point in my life ( and I was a doley for 9 months once!!!) . I've got nothing of a routine neither, which is rather soul destroying as before my op I was asleep by 10 usually.

Also as christmas is rapidly approaching , i'm actually finding that it's not exciting me anymore (not in a hardcore lesbian scene sort of way). Where has the joy of it gone? Why aren't I excited about the piss ups and seeing ny boys face christmas morning? Am I slightly depressed with not being able to work? I really haven't got the answers and finding them are proving difficult.

As I lay here at 2.45 in the morning these are the things that are going through my head, it's no wonder people turn to drugs and alcohol ( I haven't for the record). Im now single which is or isn't a good thing really, there is no point going through everything but it seems I really can't find 'THE ONE'. Is there actually a person for everyone?, sort of a shared interest in most things and a connection that runs deeper than looks or a good ass. Im unsure as how u go about doing this i've tried and honestly, cannot connect with anyone i've met in this way (as of yet anyway). I know im not destined to be alone, no one is but at the moment it sure feels like it.

Also since I last ooopdated, i've managed to get myself a real good grip on using photoshop. It might surprise some people but i'm not as dull as I make it, what takes people months to learn in photoshop literally took me a week to learn (yes i'm impressed with myself about it). Seeing as work, training or anything physical is out of the question at the moment (sex excluded), i'm doing stuff I haven't been able to do for years (actually thinking). Rebuilding mental dexterity after years of not stimulating my brain is the reason I think i'm slightly depressed. Actually realising that i've wasted so much of my life doing nothing is finally hitting home, and it's not good. What I could of been to what I am is so disturbingly far apart its scary. So the job I applied for I didn't get but it's spurred me on to look for better things in my life.

Thanks for reading, until next time
Ordinary (very bored) Ash signing out

Little bit longer

Right i've taken a little bit longer than expected to write a 2nd entry. It wasn't writers block or a lack of interest in doing this, I just didn't have anything to write about. A bit like a local paper where theres really no interesting things going on, my life in a nutshell basically. Im now into week 4 of my new shiny stable knee ligament and it's alot better, I can walk without crutches and to a degree squat to a position where if I needed to empty my bowels it isn't going to cover my ankles (not that i've actually done that mind).

I went to a friends 30th birthday party saturday up a pub called 'the sally'. It reminded me inside of a quaint old pub you would see on the tele until we started to get rather drunk (the birthday boy was sick all over the carpet). The image I had was ruined at this point and it just turned into any local pub where jaeger bombs and random shots of alocohol were just another night out. Still the reunion we had was like we all still hung around in the hog and hosper (when it was owned by the legend Mostyn), and we all are alot older but still none the wiser.

On the changing my life around from my last entry i've applied for a job, as a sales rep in port talbot. This if I get the job will be the big change my life needs and to motivate me to success (hopefully if I don't screw it up). I wont be moving down there as I can handle driving long-ish distances everyday, plus they provide you with a company car. The money is also a couple grand more than im on now which is a added bonus to be honest, plus i'll never have to get my hands dirty ever again working on god awfull, bird crap cover roofs that have way to many dangerous diseases ready to render you ill for weeks (a bit like the globe when it was open).

The boredom factor is getting ridiculous, i've started to become a sort of recluse only ever leaving the house for cigarettes or to see the lovely lady im seeing. Going out has become such a chore, when I can sit and watch films and xbox it all day. Missing going to work is one thing I never thought I would miss but I do and on that Jeremy Clarkson bombshell im done.

Thanks for reading
   Ordinary Ash

The introduction thingy

Well hello blog world, this is my attempt at creating a blog that hopefully will be read by other people than just me!.  As you will find im no Charles Dickens with my use of the English language, infact more like a simpleton who see's big words and uses them to no literary effect at all.

Seeing as im basically house bound for the next couple of weeks due to having a knee op and being stuck on the sick (which pays the worst money ever) im going to be writing every 2 -3 days, as a way to keep me partially sane and a way to vent some stuff I need to get off my chest.

You see my life isn't going the way I would of liked, theres no perfect job, millions in the bank or super fast time travelling car parked in the garage. Leaving school with my mind spinning with the new avenues I could explore, pretty much got shot down a month later when I got my first job working in a laundry. After this I got a part-time job working in ronalds obesity palace, just to help with some cash as I tried sixth form after a very unsuccessful stint at college.

I walked out in the end, being bossed about by 20-somethings who really had no prospects in life wasn't my thing. My father would come home with tales of mischief from the factory he worked, so I thought it sounded like a good place to work. How wrong was I? Put it this way, masturbating with a cheese grater was more fun. Getting laid off from this job got me into the job i've been doing now nearly 8 years - Roofing.

The thing with roofing is there is always a building, house e.t.c that needs a roof put on or fixed. To be fair it isn't a bad job except the humping of heavy materials has ruined my already knackered knees. You get to see new places, meet new people and learn things its just im not interested in it any more.

Change is a good thing people say but its hard when u don't know where to start. Do I go to college learn anew skill, apply for a job and hope I get it to kickstart a new career. Looking back now on the mistakes and misjudgements i've madeI would slap my younger self for dropping out of college.

Sorry about the rambling of a disgruntled person, im not the serious type so expect a more humourous tone to my writing as I get a bit more confident doing this. Thanks for reading ordinary Ash signing off